NOBODY~~!!!
WHy did i wanna grow up so much?
thinking that i could earn lots of money and can do many many great stuff..
That is the only thing i see in growing up FASTER.. when i was young..
Haiz...
Now it feels so Yucky growing up..
When u are young.. you dun need to have a goal..
they already have a goal plan out for you..
they? who? the GOVT!
You must go to school.. take ur PSLE exams..
then after PSLE?
they have this book filled with all the different schools..
and u dun even have to choose.. ur parents choose for u..
then?
U got into a secondary school
there another goal to hit..
The O levels...
after that its either poly or JC
and again.. Singapore has only 5 Polytechnics..
not very difficult to choose one..
6 years plus 4-5years plus 3years...
U dun even have to think.. u just need to work towards the goal..
that is all layed out by the higher authorities.
Then the guys goes to army..
and the girls.. look for rich man to marry... HAHAH~~!! NAH... just joking..
Now?
You work.. u got to think..
what's the next step..
u work n u work n u work n u work somemore..
work.. sleep.. eat.. work.. sleep... eat..
then once in a while u think about going back to school to study...
upgrade urself
then u do some research..
then u think about whether u are able to get into whatever u wan to get into..
Then u think about the COST..!! that is soooo ex! no more govt subsidize no more parents paying 4 u..
then u just hi ya... keep it aside..
and u continue to work.. eat.. sleep...
meaninglessly.. only with one goal
HOPING TO EARN MORE MONEY...
TO DO MORE GREATER STUFF~~! (like further studies which is 1. and etc. etc.)
HA!
Life has been quite easy.. until u come out to work
at first very SHIOK ar..
wow.. earn ur FIRST pay..
get to treat ur frens.. u feel good ar..
then can get whatever u wan..
nice clothings
branded stuffs..
almost all the pleasure u can afford if u wan to..
BUT.. after 3 months of happily spending :D.....
u began realize..
WHERE HAS ALL MY MONEY GONE TO?
WHY SO FAST USE FINISH?
WHY I CANT EVEN SAVE AS MUCH AS WHEN I WAS A KID or TEENAGE?
haiz..
so u worry about spendings..
contributing to ur family.. (which is good.. but hard to keep up with it also..)
And also..
as u grow up..
u got more worries to handle..
when u are young.. making frens is soooo easy n simple..
i look at u.. u look at me.. then the next moment.. holding hands together..
chasing each other.. playing.. WE ARE THE BESTEST FRIENDS IN THE WORLD..
Haiz..
Now?
U are more Cautions about ppl..
are they good or bad..
are they fake?
will they be a good fren?
and colleagues might nt be equivalent to Frens..
they could either be ur worst nightmare.. or the reason u wanna quit ur job. haha!
last time EVERY FREN IS UR BEST FREN!
Now.. we are frens :)..
better one will be Good frens..
then..
BEST ones are of cos BEST FRENS la..
hahha
hmmm what else?
OH
Then u think about getting a Partner..
for serious..
a partner which u will think of marrying..
U found one..
at the beginning u thought of dying to be married to him/her..
but the longer the years grow..
U doubt..
cos u see the worst..
Then if u break up?
u worry about ending up in the shelves...
haizzz
growing up is scary..
i just wanna grow uP faster n faster n faster!
without seeing all these coming...
So NAIVE..
but if the clock were to turn back..
i will still choose to wish to grow up fast.. having been growing up in an environment of worries everday..
the reason why i wan to grow up fast..
is becos i wan to break through.. all walls.. i wan to be independent.. i wan to be a hero..
i had enough of all the quarrels at home..
the worries.. mom have in supporting the family..
I wan to grow up.. step up to do something..
Being small.. seeing what is happening around the family.. makes me feel so Helpless..
SO I DECIDE I WAN TO GROW UP FASTER N FASTE
but now that i have grow up..
everything is different..
Just so different..
U realize.. u STILL cant help much..
So wad? grow up even faster?!
Ha.. Nahhh
SPARE ME PLS..
Nthing in the world is ever enough..
We Humans will never be satisfied..
me .. you.. everybody.. just wants even more when they have more..
and that.. IS the Irony of LIFE~!
That.. Is the UGLY TRUTH..
ha
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